It feels weird to be working on a book pre-George Floyd. It’s not like the #blacklivesmatter movement wasn’t a thing before I started this story, but Floyd’s unintentional martyrdom has kicked the world into a different kind of angst. It’s crazy right now. The ‘rona is still out there, and race in America is like a powder keg. It’s tiresome fighting this fight over and over and over. Sometimes being black is truly tiresome lol. I just wanna read and write my books, you know? I should be able to do that. But that is a fictional world I’ve yet to create. You can’t ignore what’s going on. That’s why everything’s so fucked up now.
The protests have made me think about my books. I’ve hung my hat on an interracial shingle, and now that feels a little bit wrong. I know it isn’t. It’s just the emotion talking. The desire to help, to be of service, to do something to help, to uplift my people. Sigh.
But let’s not get off into that here and now. Let’s take a little bitty break from the world’s foolishness, injustice and cruelty. Let this blog be that, okay? In this week’s blog of my latest work in progress “Saints and Sinnas,” which picks up where last week’s left off, Sinna is catching her girls up on all things Tan — including the suspicious nature of the K-pop bromance… Let me know what you think!
Oh, the picture is of South Korean actor Jang Eui Su who I’m watching in Where Your Eyes Linger. He’s super sexy. Waiting for new episodes is so annoyingly old-school. LOL
Her girls laughed gleefully, clinking their glasses.
“I’m serious! He corners me every chance he gets. It’s gotten so bad my team doesn’t even want to sit on the couch in the studio because they know that’s where he likes to take me down. He did it earlier today.”
“It’s that good, girl?” Lani.
Sinna rolled her eyes.
“It has to be,” Tommy offered. “Good as he look? If it wasn’t that shit would be, like, against nature. All the 501K boys are gorgeous, but even when I first looked at their pictures, Tan stood out. He’s sexy as hell – I mean, ridiculously fine. Like prototype for ideal masculinity fine – but he also seemed, I dunno. Nice?”
“Is he nice?” Lani
“Sweet as pie, girl.”
“But what about all that homoerotic shit? Maybe he was just a virgin with women.” Lani wondered.
“I said the same thing, and I asked him about it. He said no. He’s never slept with a man in a sexual way, never fooled around with one, and he said he has no desire to. That shit looks off though, right?”
Lani and Tommy nodded in sync.
“There’s so many videos on YouTube,” Lani said. “I was just questioning whether there’s fire for that smoke, you know?”
“In Tan’s defense,” said Tommy, “a lot of the dodgier videos are old, and in many of them it’s usually Bik or one of the others who initiates most of the affection. He just doesn’t refuse it.”
Sinna nodded. “Right! As masculine as Tan is, which means nothing really, it looks strange to see him randomly holding another man’s hand.”
“Exactly,” said Lani.
“And some of that shit is low key malicious editing,” Tommy opined.
“Right? You patch things together the right way you can spin any narrative,” said Lani.
“But I have a theory,” Sinna said.
Her girls leaned forward.
“South Koreans are faux prudish. They want you to think butter wouldn’t melt in their mouths, but we all know sex happens. It’s just too taboo to talk about. Plus, men and women don’t really spend much time together unless they’re dating or married. I mean like, none.
“They don’t touch each other. They barely look at each other, and when they do it’s Issa Rae awkward. There’s not even that much dating going on because people are too busy hustling. So, since we know men are men no matter what nationality they are, where are they getting the affection they want?”
“From other men,” Tommy guessed.
“Exactly. And these idols eat together, sleep together, travel together, their lives are extremely regimented and restricted, and they can’t trust most people because they’re celebrities.
“Image is fatal in this country. And you already know the average, grimy ass goon is tryna get what they can get, and the K-pop world is its own special brand of trip. Plus the 501K boys are best friends.”
“They’re also well groomed, dieted, exercised, and naturally gorgeous. It makes sense that somebody’s gonna make somebody his play wife or husband,” Tommy said.